Had plenty of drunk nights with friends after a stressful install for an art exhibit in our studio space. Hosted a party in the studio, karaoking into 4 AM. Levi dropped a bill to secure a whole table of food for me, I did end up sending him money for the pizza afterwards. A proper send off to a great 2024. We did a night hike in the rain on NYE before heading over Dan's house where none of our friends were present. Started a bonfire for them and bounced to freestyle in the car.
Read some poetry at our event in the studio at the beginning of the month - had to bang out a few posters pretty quick. Hosted my own poetry event at the library in January, then became the highest three people on the planet after Bella gave Evan and I a piece of a 500 mg chocolate bar on our way to the Exposed Film exhibit. I was fine talking about Jung and House of Leaves with Levi and Conrad on the train but it hit me all at once at Burger Drops. 3 balls of anxiety at the art exhibit. Otherwise, staying home to focus on building habits for the year. Exceptions being; cooking Leah steak, Bella steak, Nosferatu with my sis, playing pool, the Jersey concert and grabbing food at Belle Isle > Lake Inez last night with Emily. I'm trying to give myself less time for projects to encourage urgency, breaking them all down into 3 day sprints. It has not been going well. Maybe working in sprints needs practice like all things. Levi and I just spoke for hours on the phone we resolved to get our shit together and do 30 days of Yoga with Adrienne. It was really refreshing, I feel recommitted to embodying my philosophies through actions.
Got to bang out projects for the next bit - new posters, tutorials, drawings, portfolio site, etc. Feeling lonely lately but instead of reaching out in desperation for human contact, I know crushing projects will make me feel better. Then I can reach out with more intention and grounded energy. Going to my sister's thesis defence, Redchurch on Valentine's because it's open till 10 pm, a wrestling show at Fairweather and Lover's Ball at Nthenyou with Leah after. Actually, Vania has a noise show this Sunday and I think Leah and Levi would be down.. It would also be nice to swap out everything in my diet with higher protein alternatives (e.g; amaranth instead of rice) Also need to get hands dirty to prep for this show Leah and I are planning, figuring out canvas sizes and palettes, etc. Need to buy concert tickets as well, Cochise, Oklou, unfortunately Carti is touring with the Weeknd and prices are insane. Imagine getting elbowed in the nose in pit for that show? It's not worth it but holy.